Disconnecting to Reconnect correctly...

A few days ago my facebook status was " sometimes u have to disconnect to reconnect". Im happy to say that today I have started the process. Im currently letting go of all the nonsense in my life... so that I can make it. I cant even say I didnt see it coming. I believe I closed my eyes and attempted to do this blind love thing and enough is enough. It doesnt make sense to love blindly...U find urself hurt for no apparent reason. Too funny. Well Im definately not crying over this mess any more. Im gonna move on and learn from EVERYTHING I've experienced. Finally Im free. So its time for Faith to exist again, becuz honestly Im not sure who this person is that I have become. I look in the mirror and I dont see Faith Renea Newborn anymore. I have changed and I cant say its all for the good. I see scares that shouldnt even be there I see what loving someone with all of u does especially when its not returned. anywho... im done cant continue in this way. In the words of Keri Hilson, "Sometimes Love comes around and it knocks u down, just get back up when it knocks u down." well Im getting up!

3.15.10

Well 3/15/10 ended up being a day I will probaly never forget. After my doctors appointment I found out that in a few months my life will never be the same. How am I feeling right now? well Im not sure I know so much how or what Im feeling. Fear, nervous, anxious, excited are just a few words that come to mind however I find it rather difficult to put an accurate emotion or feeling on it. Anyways Im not stupid, Im still in the green area. I dont know what to think or feel at this point. Im just going to sit back, relax and wait.... wait for my reality to hit me, wait for my life to change, slowly but surely, before my eyes. Im just gonna wait for mister to get it together. Im gonna wait for reality.

A new day!

This is my FB stat this morning hope u like it:

This is a day that I've never seen before, standing in a place i've never stood before, experiencing grace and mercy (my two best friends) once more. As I close my eyes tight, I whisper "Thank U Lord"! 3 pure and sincere words from my heart to urs. For I know without u Father I would never be the same. Just a mere shell of nothingness, struggling to exist. So I take it not for granted but I cherish it. This new day thats before me, a very special present. And as I rise from my bed, seperating my pillow from my head, Im excited because I get to explore it. This new day.

SO today Im sitting in my office feeling good. Im thankful today for this feeling. God has been dealing with me alot lately and I think more than that I have been allowing Him to do so. I know who am I to "allow" God to do anything. But I believe that alot of times we hinder our own process. We allow ourselves to get in our own way. Be it by not being honest with God and ourselves, or not living a right life before God. Whatever the case may be... Today I stand confident that I have reconnected with God and am growing!